Dir en grey - GLASS SKIN

GLASS SKIN

My vision begins to blur
The glass sky, the color of the wind
The merry-go-round playing alone
I wave
My somehow faded voice is more important to me than my guilty conscience
Tomorrow I sleep, leaving myself behind
Emptier still than any tears of comedy
Left to be just taken
Left to be just damaged
Here...

In the dark morning, I pretend the window to be a picture frame
I wake my sleeping skin and press my hand against this wet piece of picture
Spring blossoms and the petals fall, giving life to the river
Swaying from side to side, where will you go?
I put my hand on the heavy and closed door
The remains of the parade
The silence laughs along with the fact that I won't be sleeping again tonight
Emptier still than any tears of comedy
Left to be just taken
Left to be just damaged
Here, let there be love...
The jokingly-dancing seasons endlessly hurt
Left to be just taken
Left to be just damaged
And to be melted by the dreams I hold out

(I bleed as my way of compensating everything to you
How heavy is blood?
Happiness and sadness lies too close)
The hand that will be born tomorrow, will be simply pure and nothing else
I can barely see you now with all these tears

Emptier still than any tears of comedy
Left to be just taken
Left to be just damaged
Here, let there be love...
There is a ferris wheel, where I can look down and see you from
The melody that just comes crumbling down is also so sweet and beautiful, it's frightening
The shadow exposed by the sun is branded into my memory
and it touches my heart than any shallow words combined

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o413iO-QI20

Why do i still feel pain?

Currently Listening Glass Skin 1. Glass skin see related

Dozing Green

Dozing Green

Mushi -insect-

I can't open myself up to anyone I can't believe in anyone at all
and I can't see anything the light that shines is disappearing, soon it will be gone
unable to open myself up this is my weakness, my past
I can get what I want, yet if I do, the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away
the typical answer is when you die, you'll be reborn, come back again

my heart is shuttered, soon it will break apart
stifling my tears, I laugh day after day
my heart has shown me that believing is nothing
those hypocrites killed me

my heart is shuttered, soon it will crumble away
stifling my tears, I scream day after day
my heart has left me with a belief in strength
my own heart killed me

(live version)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxQuHecPGzs

'my heart has shown me that believing is nothing, those hypocrites killed me'

Why is it so hard to believe in someone.....?

Maybe i just don't want to get hurt again..........?

Gazette - Guren 紅蓮

I'm sorry... after awhile, let me sleep by your name

The passing days drew us closer
The pain is matched with joy
Both hands reflect that
I cry when i think of you

there is a rain of sadness
it's fine just to remain unknown
i tremble for repose, i remembered
what do you want to see in this reeled in dream?

i dont want you to fade
let me hear, even a sigh
a small heartbeat, that isnt there
i want you come here!

unchanging dreams, if this continues on
please dont pause in your happiness
even if it doesnt need to called out but
the drowning days are piling over me.

i dont want you to fade
let me hear, even a sigh
a small heartbeat, that isnt there
i want you come here!

Even the hands of salvation is also in vagueness
Will there be a cocoon at intervals of the second, without the string tearing off?

i want to hear, even a sigh
little rhythm to the sound of the heartbeat
of touched prayers delivered. [haha ok i give up on this]

the name which i cannot call out i held closely
counting with my fingers, i dont want tomorrow to dissapear
hearing with blocked ears
the sound of a broken cradle

the spring time will never come again
the crimson lotus is in bloom

This is one of the most beautiful song i ever heard.....Ruki's voice bring this song alive.....it makes me want to cry everytime i listen to this.......Listen to this song live....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93qpKVJzWSI&feature=related

I don't want to feel pain anymore.....did god forsaken me?

Jobs Jobs Jobs....

I went job hunting 2 weeks ago! Applying jobs in the internet i think its the faster way to get your hands on the jobs you want! AND I GOT IT!!  2 Jobs interview for Clinique and Shiseido!  And i got offer a job in Shiseido today and later on in the afternoon i got called by Clinique Myer for a second interview!  I am a bit confused right now coz if i got offer a job in Clinique what should i do?  Is it against the Compay's policy for a staff to work in different cosmetic brand?  Seriously i dont know which one i should pick!  Clinique offers permenat Part-time (offers more than 35 hours a week) which i get sick leaves and those such things and Shiseido offers casual (offeres 15 or more hours a week) but i got to travel around in different department store and even a chance into other state!!!  I really want to work for both jobs! Am i being too greedy? And the Shiseido training is starting next monday!  I need an ANSWER!! HELP MEEEEEEEE!!!! 

P.S. Yeah....bought the new McQueen x M.A.C!  New Vegas is so good that words cant describe!  I cant wait until next monday because M.A.C Holiday 2007 Antiquitease colour is releasing~~  MUWAHAHAHA! I already knew what i am going to get because i have seen some swatches on the inernet and damn those colours are just so pretty and seriously i think i am going to get all of them...(sorry saving account....)  And yeah the Royal Assets will be follow after the Antiquitease! So be paitence people and save heaps of money because you are going to buy EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!